The up side down side of dreams

I'm breaking I'm crumbling I'm falling I'm tumbling I'm winning this losing battle
I'm stretching I'm tearing I'm fearing I'm caring too much for these careless fools
The dead grass is always greener
My hopes forever leaner
This I've found is the up side down side of dreams
I'm aching I'm drowing I'm taking my bow and I'm exiting through the floor
where I lay in my tears and my rose colored years of disillusioned delusions of more
You've made me You broke me You're leaving me choking in clouds of tumultuous despair
I'm building I'm cracking these demons I'm tackling I cannot afford to lose
The dead grass is always greener
My hopes forever leaner
This I've found is the up side down side of dreams
My branches are snapping my petals overlapping my stems are dry and bound
I'll stay in my pot and relieve all you lot of your sense of duty and loyalty
Someday my sun will shine and this oyster will be mine and be sure
I'll pay you in kind
For the dead grass is always greener
My hopes forever leaner
This I've found is the up side down side of dreams